mid-covid check up.

It’s been about three month’s since I had to work from home due to the COVID-19 pandemic. Like many, I haven’t gone out other than to get groceries or take-out.

These last three months have been… Insane. Apocalyptic-like; global pandemic, the BLM/ACAB movement, the DNC once again rigging the primary, oil prices crashing, the worst unemployment rate since the great depression, and wall street having their best month in decades despite everyone else missing out on the wealth. If you had warned me last year about all the other things happening on top of this pandemic, I wouldn’t have believed you. Kobe died as well just before all this shit. 2019 was a much simpler time.

It was my birthday on the 10th. I didn’t think that this pandemic would only last until mid-May the earliest, but I’ve now joined many others with celebrating it at home with only family (and some friends who have also practiced social distancing and stayed negative). I turned 29, and am now just realizing I’m on my last year being in my 20’s. It’s a weird thought, however I can honestly say I feel that I didn’t peak in my 20’s. Sure, I’ve accomplished a lot but feel indifferent about those accomplishments.

In the morning, I woke up around 5:45 am – which is the earliest I’ve gotten up since working from home, and went for a much needed walk. I brought my camera, three rolls of b/w film, and a light meter because I forgot how to do mental-metering.

I more than likely shot a whole bunch of nothing but doing the act of photography was incredibly therapeutic. That walk was really all that I could ask for on my birthday. A few days later… It’s really the only thing that I constantly think about.

Now it’s back to WFH on a Monday. I’m not sure when I’ll be going back to the office – perhaps by August? Who fucking cares… I sure don’t. I’m just rolling with the punches.

Anyway, that’s just me checking in and trying to clear my thoughts. I have so many other things in my head but they’re not worth writing down – not on here, at least.

Here are some recent scans from a simpler time (2019) to cap this post.

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The morning of 9/11, and 10 Years Afterward.

With the anniversary of 9/11 in a couple of days I thought to look back at some lesser known images of the day.

This project, ‘Morning of 9/11’ by Aristide Economopoulos is absolutely captivating and really nails the horror and heavy nature of the day. One photo in particular (you’ll know it when you see it) is so horrific, human, and captivating that I really can’t articulate it as well as I should.

He also does a follow-up, ‘9/11 – 10 Years Later’ which really drives the whole thing to a conclusion. To me, it shows the resolve of New Yorkers, and how people are capable of building up, moving forward from tragic events, able to live their lives without letting the fear of re-living that event be a part of them.

I remember that morning, I was 10 years old, I had moved into a newly built house in the burbs of the city. It was a school morning and I was doing my usual routine: wake up, get ready for the day, switch on CBC to watch ‘Arthur’ and have breakfast. But on that day, I didn’t get to see those morning cartoons before school – and I was grumbling about it. I just didn’t think or care for the news that day.

Once I got to school, everyone was talking about it. I even had a classmate, Martin, whose father was actually in the WTC that day. Martin’s dad made it out, but unfortunately not everyone did.

I know I was 10 years old at the time, but I still feel bad about not having the capacity to empathize or realize the gravity of the situation.


Year 28 Playlist

28 favorite memories (no particular order):

  1. Seeing my son for the first time.
  2. Tying the knot with Elle, July 2014.
  3. Vancouver, May 2013 with the wife and (first) kid. Riding the Sea-Wall with Sawyer at the front.
  4. Summer 2013. No job, graduated college, spent the ENTIRE summer with Sawyer. Early afternoon naps spent with him.
  5. Summer 2009, dating Elle and nights on the Dayrit house back yard deck.
  6. Seeing a self-developed roll for the first time.
  7. Seeing a darkroom print appear before my eyes for the first time.
  8. Wandering downtown while listening to music as a teenager.
  9. Seeing DBS: Broly in theatre for the first time… And then the other following 3 screenings.
  10. Penticton and Panorama vacations with family friends.
  11. Late night talks/sleep overs with Vernon
  12. Friday night practices at the Heritage YMCA
  13. Puking on Lance’s hand after a rough night.
  14. Late night bike rides prior to fatherhood
  15. Listening to Sawyer coo before falling asleep.
  16. Hearing Chet Baker & Paul Desmonds rendition of ‘Autumn Leaves’ for the first time.
  17. Finally mastering 2-wheel bike riding (age 6)
  18. Exploring the back yard field of 622 Queensland Place, catching honey bees and spiders. Before the field got turned into a condo building.
  19. Playing hide & go seek in the dark w/ cousins and playing Michael Jackson’s ‘Thriller’.
  20.  Christmas of 2002, got the JSRF/Sega GT 2002 Xbox bundle.
  21. Summer in Vancouver, 1998. Watching Hercules on VHS, Pokemon… Playing with Hot Wheels. Grounders on the playground.
  22. Summer in Vancouver, 2008. Met new friends, felt a sense of independence, smoked weed for the first time before the HSBC fireworks.
  23. Edmonton/Drumheller trip with Elle, Sawyer, Felix, Alex, Adrian.
  24. British Columbia trip with Serelito, Mary-Anne, Vernon, Celeste, Richard. 200…6?
  25. Last night in Vancouver + Greyhound ride with the crew, March 2008.
  26. Shit talking and all day video game sessions at Eli’s house.
  27. Receiving a GameBoy Color from Mom + Dad in 98.
  28. (Reserved for today).
August, 2015


A Casual Leica M240 Review – almost a year in.


So I bought this camera used in July of 2018 – almost a year ago. The previous owner only used it for about 2000 clicks and I paid about $4200 Canadian. Expensive, totally out of my price range… HOWEVER, a pretty fair price all things considered (I think).

I bought the M240 because I enjoy shooting with the M-System (film M4-P) and in a broader sense, I enjoy shooting with film cameras. Not because the process itself is ‘rewarding’ or ‘enjoyable’ (it’s not if you’re shooting 200+ rolls a year, which is what I averaged); I enjoy using film cameras because of the responsiveness of the shutter.

Now, I’ve shot enough digital cameras in the last 6 years to know that there hasn’t been a digital camera (interchangeable mirrorless, specifically) out there with a shutter that has the responsiveness of a mechanical film camera. I’ve always had to deal with some sort of shutter lag either because of the camera’s processing speed, or because autofocus kicked in. In most situations, it was because of the autofocusing. There have been two digital cameras that I’ve used that have come close to having virtually zero shutter lag – the Ricoh GR in Snap Focus mode, and the Fujifilm X-Pro series (1 & 2) with a ‘dumb’ adapted lens (no electronic contacts). The GR is a compact and I wanted to use my M-lenses for a mirrorless set up so… In my case, I had the X-Pro 2 mounted with a Voigtlander Color Skopar 21mm f4, which is a great combo with a 32mm equivalent if you ask me. While that was good enough to work around, there were limitations. First of all, the crop sensor was an issue. I mainly shoot 28mm and there weren’t many options for a more compact 18mm M-mount than the huge and pricey Zeiss. Secondly, a lack of rangefinder patch does make a difference when trying to focus in low light situations. Trying to get decent focus in low light using the small EVF patch and the EVF with a wide angle lens at f4 was hilariously bad. Aside from these limitations, the combo seemed to do the job BUT it still wasn’t as familiar as using the M4-P with a 28mm.

That aside, from an economic standpoint, if you’re shooting more than 200 color rolls a year, the costs of film, and development add up. Yes, I process the film at home myself and it IS cheaper, but I don’t want to burn a hole in my pocket AND spend the large amount of time developing and scanning when I can use that time on something else. I’m better off spending that money towards a digital body that allows for color while getting instant results.

So… Finally… Here’s the review:

Leica M240, left. Film M4-P, right. Yes I taped up the logos. I absolutely don’t like having the red dot.

Leica M240

  • shutter lag good


  • price bad

… All joking aside, the shutter response IS IMO pretty damn close to using a film Leica. But lets face it, I DID spend an unreasonable amount of cash for ‘old and outdated’ tech – but hey, you pick your own battles. I’m prioritizing ergonomics/handling/familiarity over new tech so please take my opinions with a grain of salt.

Ergonomics/Handling IRL

For the ergonomics, if you’ve shot with a Leica then it’s pretty straight forward. A bit heavy, yes and a bit thicker, but I haven’t been bothered by the minuscule differences. Setting the ISO is a bit weird, but if you watch Kai W’s review on the M240 you can kinda figure out how he gets it going (hold ISO and scroll the wheel).

As I mentioned before, the shutter response is basically as fast as a film M. When you’re in Aperture-priority, the meter is constantly reading the scene and those readings don’t get in the way with the shutter response either. Leica did a really good job with their A-mode. However, if there’s a picture that you’re anticipating and you have your camera at your hip, make sure to half press the shutter to read the lighting before putting the camera up to your eye and firing. I’ve had instances where I fully pressed the shutter and ended up underexposed or having shutter drag.

When there are situations where the chaos of the subject matter is too overwhelming that you need to spray and pray in hopes of getting a decent frame, the buffer will slow down and then you’ll have to wait until it’s free. If you’ve been shooting film at 2 frames a second, you’ll probably marvel at this… Sports/action photographers, not so much. It’s not really a problem for me.

Coming from the Fuji line up, the shutter sound is louder on the M240. It’s more like a dampened DSLR clunk instead of the mechanical ‘swish’ of the film M-bodies and (to a degree) the X-Pro2. This was the only real annoyance I had but hey, you pick your battles – they all make noises in the end and people are going to eventually hear your camera.

Image Quality

Sensor tech is from 2012 (right?). Coming from the X-Pro2, I’ve been spoiled with the Fuji sensors. I remember getting DNG files which could be manipulated 5 stops in the highlights and shadows to get unreal, PRINTABLE results. Not so much with the M240. Push your shadows over 1.5 stops before they start getting a green color cast and that’s about the limit for what you can get before having to fudge with your color balance. Unless you’re converting the files to monochrome, you’re definitely not going to have great dynamic range. But hey, pick your battles… Get the exposure right and you’ll be aces, ESPECIALLY when you’re printing the files.

Battery Life

I’m not going to lie. the battery life is insane on this. I did a full day of shooting in NYC from about 9am until sunset and still didn’t have to pull out a second battery. I think I got about 500-600 frames of garbage that day, without viewing the LCD or using live view so depending on how much you rely on the LCD screen, YMMV. Switching batteries is pretty familiar with reloading film since you have to remove the base plate. What was it that Winogrand said?… “There are no pictures when I’m reloading“.. Yeah well, in this case, you don’t even need to reload at all. It’s more like, “there are no pictures when the buffer cache is freeing up“.

Lens Compatibility

You think that since I dropped $4200 CAD on a digital M that I would probably be using Leica glass – or atleast, have some money in the bank to save up for one, right?


Without spewing out too much, if you’re shooting 35mm focal lengths, get the Zeiss Biogon. I’ve used the Voigtlander Color Skopar 35 and the color cast in the edges are pretty bad. Can’t say anything about the other 35’s that CV has to offer but you’re better off going with Zeiss.

As for 28mm, I’ve found that the Voigtlander Ultron f2 does a great job and is within your budget if you’ve no more pocket to burn through! I’ve used the Color Skopar 28mm f3.5 on the M240 and similar to the Skopar 35, color cast is terrible, which is a real shame, because I LOVE the Skopar lenses. If you’re worried about the focus shift on the Ultron, maybe opt for a Biogon 28. I think I’ve noticed a focus shift on the digital sensor whereas I haven’t noticed it at all on film… But hey, pick your battles, y’know? If it’s going to bother you, you better bank up for a ‘better’ lens. It hasn’t bothered me at this point.

M240 with a Cosina Voigtlander 28mm f2 Ultron. Ricoh GV-2 finder on the hotshoe. Loose bandaid not included.


Would I recommend the Leica M240? Hell fucking no. It’s outdated sensor tech, if it hasn’t been ‘obsolete’ already, it will be in the next decade. It’s heavy, and it’s out of the price range of any reasonable human who isn’t a rich one-percent-er. My recommendation if you’re shooting 28mm? Skip the M-system and just buy a Ricoh GR and be done with it… For the love of god, just do that and never touch the Leica M-system.

But, if you’ve already ‘invested’ in the M-system or is curious about it… As I’ve said many other times, pick your battles… As someone who mainly shoots with a rangefinder, I don’t really have much of a damn choice other than Leica. If Epson re-issued the RD1 for full frame I’d 100% hop on it. No, the X-Pro 2 didn’t cut it for me (with my style of shooting) and I wanted to use M-lenses without compromising the focal length due to a crop sensor. A Sony doesn’t have an OVF, is way too clunky and the UI is too damn confusing to navigate through. I could shoot film, but the costs (and physical storage space) will add up over time, not to mention the time spent developing/scanning for a slim hit/miss ratio… It just doesn’t really make sense – ESPECIALLY if you shoot like a mad man.

So now I’ve been left with spending a large wad of cash to something I have no business of owning into a hobby I don’t plan on earning a dime on. It’s absolutely not a smart move.

But hey, the Leica M240 feels familiar, and it responds the way I need it to respond. And after being almost a year into owning this camera, I haven’t had any regrets so far.

Usual EDC… Well, maybe not the ice cream bar.

social media break

I’ve taken a break off of Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, and – to some extent – Reddit.

Using social media hasn’t halted the way I photograph nor has it hindered or helped with the daily practice of doing it. Instagram has been a great vehicle for viewing photography and discovering photographers. However, I find that it’s become a strange rat race to post a new photo that I think is successful or a #throwback post of my ‘greatest-hits’ before the algorithm sends my feed into the abyss. Although Instagram has stripped the ability for other users to view your ‘likes’, I’m still able to view it. I’m not sure why – though it’s most likely my psychology or insecurity – but that makes me anxious.

So now, I’ve deactivated my accounts. IG was probably the best of all evils, Facebook had nothing of value and estranged family members trying to contact me in the middle of the night, Twitter is a great source for breaking news but I’ve found myself using it as a list for petty ranting. Reddit has it’s share of assholes and trolls when trying to discuss politics and racial issues – and that sort of engagement was the most exhausting. It’s been a few days now and I feel better about myself and the world. Like I mentioned before, the way I photograph hasn’t changed except for the fact that I’ve been more inclined to use my Leica M4-P and shoot film… So the process after the act of photographing has been delayed a bit more since I don’t have the immediate feedback of digital tech.

Since then, here’s what I’ve discovered about myself and my photography in regards to taking a break from social media:

  • Assholes you find on the internet are probably nice (or for the most part, shy) in person.
  • Vice versa of the above.
  • Productivity doesn’t change. In fact, the ‘wasted’ time is spent on other enjoyable activities such as spending time with loved ones or reading/looking at photo books.
  • True gratification comes from the process, not from the result. The following is superficial.
  • Like most things, social media should be used but not abused. Paraphrased – too much of a good thing is a bad thing.

Until next time.